|i'm feelin' the same way all over again...
||[Apr. 15th, 2004|10:56 pm]
so since linds has been anxiously awaiting an entry, i will try to think of what i've been up to and fill you all in on my not-so-exciting life.
so i quit my job at pat and oscar's. i decided it wasn't worth my time, or the pay, so i went in and quit. even though i only worked for like 2 days it wasn't what i wanted to do. i guess i really did take advantage of my free time- but damn it's good to have it back.
so since i've been up to nothing...i haven't been doing all too much. my mom had her big party and that was pretty fun. i got to meet her "new" bf. actually it is to my knowledge that he was the guy my mom was "with" when she was with my dad. still grosses me out but what can you do. she told me awhile ago she was seeing someone and that i would meet him at the party. and i did. he's alright. the only things i said to him the whole night was probably "hi, i'm julie". needless to say, it was a deep conversation. jk. sooooo yeah. steph calls him..."a white trash version of our dad". yeah that kinda sums it up. can you picture it, the gold chain and all? damn, and i'm serious. i was tempted to call him dad but i thought that would be a little too forward. ha. it was a hilarious idea though. so yeah it was kinda awkward and i feel like my mom thinks he is more important than us. not to be like....oh she needs all her attention to be focused on us, but come on seriously. my grandma doesn't like him, but then again she wouldn't like anyone else but my dad. she still wants my parents to get back together but wtf is that all about? my dad is way is better off without her. he's nice and all but when it comes down to it...he's not my dad and i don't think anyone could ever replace him. it's just weird seeing my mom with someone else. and other people just don't understand what it's like- i don't think anyone could unless they were really in my situation. it's a different perspective when it's YOUR mom and YOUR dad. so yeah, that's MY perspective.
BUT to get back to what really matters....at the party eilea and michelle were there along with stephanie and aaron so it was good to have some people my age to hang with. other than that it was a bunch of 40 year olds who were drunk and having wayyyy too much fun with sparklers. outta contro. oh yeah and fake laughing is hilarious. oh man. i had some margaritas myself since everyone else was pretty much gone and they didn't notice. we (meaning me, eilea and michelle) went in the spa when everyone left to finish off the night.
we had caeser chavez day off (don't ask) so me, matt and andy made a trip to the oc and went to southcoast. michelle met up with us and eilea came to dinner at the end of the night. we hung out at my house by the firepit and drank some drinks to top off the day. it was fun, we should make trips like that more often.
anyway, my dad is still in idaho. he's been there about 2 months. he said he should be home this friday, meaning tomorrow, but we'll see. i miss him a lot and it's weird that i talked to him more on the phone when he was 3 states away than when he was an hour away. i miss him...a lot.
so easter was alright. i went home on saturday night but my mom was out with her bf because she thought it would be more fun to see him than to spend time with me. and she wonders why i like dad better. so i did nothing like a loser, but it's ok because i know i'm not a loser. it was nice to just sit and do nothing and anyway i'm used to that by now. ok easter day was mostly awkward to say the least. andy was there (mom's bf)...not to be confused with the andy i know. yeah grams was in a bad mood because of andy and so i had to hear a bunch of drama when i got back to sd from my mom about "how rude grams was". get over it. you like him that's all that matters. anyway, if you base your relationships of other peoples' opinions then you'll never be happy. annoying. luckily i had steph and aaron with me so we could laugh about how uncomfortable the situation was. hilarious. grams is the best though, she said i was what kept her going in life. that made me smile. so easter was alright, minus the drama and not having my dad there. the food was good, costco bought lasagna and candy. mmmm candy i got a lot of that. that was the best part of the whole situation i think though. it's all good, i got what i wanted.
so i'm back here in sd and just doing the "school" thing. whatever that means. not many parties going on. michelle came down and visited me a couple weeks ago and that was so much fun. we chilled at coronado and met these guys that we blew off but it was so hilarious. we had a nice dinner out and sat in the del coronado hotel like we were guests there. we read a book on haunted places and found out some of the rooms were haunted. we wanted to check it out but michelle was scared and the upstairs was restricted to guests only. damn them and their security. we got a few weird stares because we were there for so long. chelle will be down around may 1st though and i am so excited for that. if it's warm at the beach we are actually going to go there and lay out. ah how nice.
not much else has been happening. i am looking into living arrangements for next year. i think i will be living with some of the first floor girls from last year in a house. there will be 5 of us i'm pretty sure. jen and kim will be leaving for spain in the spring, so instead of living with them until they leave we decided that it would be better if i just lived by myself or some other people so that i wouldn't have to deal with finding a new place when they left. i think it will be fun though, they are hilarious people and i'm really excited about it. hopefully we can find a house soon though, so that things will somewhat be taken care of.
tomorrow night there is a zbt party and also a party at the first floor girls' apt. i don't know which one to go to, but i will probably just go to zbt, since it's about 10 feet away, literally. plus i think jen and kim are leaning towards that and i really don't want to drive to lauras place since well..i don't drink and drive. and i know i wouldn't not be drinking.
erin is coming tomorrow too...yeah! i haven't seen her in so long so i am excited. i miss whitney too...come down!
alright well i have bored myself so i'm sure you're all bored as well. i got acrylics fyi..omg i'm turning into a girl. anyway i will talk to you all later. hope everyone is well and things are going great. i'll write later when i have more important things to say...bye bye.
a special note from lindsay...
Wintdancer: is that why i'm feeling neglected--cuz of the attn to the journal--or is that just the wind on the chilly night, my love...